ENC 1101-B3 & B4: Writing for Discovery

My grandmother just passed last week and I feel as if I have lost a part of me. Most kids aren’t close to their grandparents but my situation was completely different. I loved her so much and it’s been so hard for me that past couple of days.

Music is my life. I have to admit it. If there was no such thing as music, I don’t know how I would cope with certain things in my life.
When I workout, the music that I listen to, gives me motivation to train harder and longer. If it weren’t for my CD player, I don’t think that I would have finished some of my runs or some of my exercises.

Its incredible the way our minds tend to think and produce weird things like dreams. Ive always had the most awkward dreams but nothing like last night.

It started off with me standing alone watching these two people. We were on a pier, overlooking murky green water. I saw a grandmother and her grandaughter standing in the middle, towards the end. All of a sudden, her granddaughter fell off of the pier and into the ocean. I ran over to see if she was okay and when I looked down, the ocean had turn into flames. It looked like a bottomless pit with fire and smoke everywhere. It almost resembled hell.

This was my single and solitary motive for adopting the profession. I wondered where I might have been if perhaps governing factors were deviant. This begs the question: was there a steady paycheck to be had in the pursuit of women?

This was my single and solitary motive for adopting the profession. I wondered where I might have been if perhaps governing factors were deviant. This begs the question: was there a steady paycheck to be had in the pursuit of women?

It’s a productive waste of time wondering how I got here. My life allows for this useless day dreaming. Today most of my day dreaming is concerned with the present. As a kid—as I suppose is not unusual—my thoughts and dreams were fixed firmly on the future. Little kids are just wasting time waiting to grow up and my childhood was no different. I had spent my share of sleepless nights lying in bed wondering where I would be twenty or thirty years down the road. Twenty-four years down the road I no longer wonder, the answer to all my childhood day dreams are realized in this small desk and hard plastic chair.

This whole ordeal with my roommate got me to thinking. After analyzing her, this is what I've come up with.

One of the hardest things a person can encounter is– themselves. That’s what I believe. Obviously because, no one can control your story, except for you.

This is the first poem I've written in years, so here goes...


I’ve never been in this kinda slump before
Keep yearning for, the one I adore

I’m embarrassed...by my ways
I’ve been like this for too many days

Seems these days in this close circle of my blurty friends the Sims are spreading rapidly. I have joined the revolution and am in the online regiment. Last night my roomate said he found some extra money so he re-subcribed to The Sims Online and since each of us had our own copy of the game, we're sharing the pass for onine. Other news is that this is my last week of classes and next week is just finals. I should be home by next Saturday, so you special people(Gaby) who I just gotta see, now's your chance. My room is actually clean for a change and very nicely organized. My room had space to move around in it now, I'm still not used to it. LOL. If any of you ever get Sims Online, my name there is QuickSilver and I live in Blazing Falls. I might go to a friends house this weekend up here, cuz she wants me to party with her since her birthday was last week and this'll be our last weekend up here for the year. If I go, I'll definitaly be off the wagon, the alcohol will flow through me like blood.LOL. Sorry to those who wanted me to calm down on the drinking, but this will be an exception, seeing as that I have been sober for two weeks. So let me have my fun and don't hassle me about it. As for school, I'm only gonna pass two of my four classes, so I'll have to re-take the ones I failed in Spring and I might use one of my forgivenesses so my GPA doesn't get that much of an asswhoopin. In Spring I'm going to be one of those nerdy guys and study my ass off, because I do not wanna mess up here and have to go back to Homestead and attend a shitty-fuck of a school know as MDC. I've been talking to "important" people on the phone, which since I rarely talk to people on the phone is a big stretch for me. Well you important people know who you are.

As I look down the mountain, my palms grew sweaty as I clinch the reins. The trail is very high and dusty so it is very hard to see anything. Even though it was dusty, the horses fortunately still knew where they are going. Some of the people are a little scared because they are so high up, but not for me because I like living on the edge like this, literally.

Absolutely Ridiculous!

Sitting and discussing our trip, Nataly comes to the decision that none of us should drive our own cars. Our cars were either in too bad of shape to make it that far of a distance or our parents spent a ridiculous amount of money on our cars and don’t want us to damage them in any way possible. Kristen thinks that a minivan is way “un-cool” and Andie says an SUV is too much of a man’s car. Instead, I get on the Nokia and call up Travelocity and rent a 2000 Volkswagen Beetle. C’mon, this isn’t necessarily the best car on the planet for a road trip, but it’s the only one they have available.

Every one is given a chance in life to do what they want with their lives. Some people make the right choice, some make the wrong choice. James knew exactly what he wanted to do with his life and he was determined to do anything to get what he wanted. James was 18 and worked for a living. He had a few friends who had a band and he really admired them. His girlfriend was always bugging him to get a band and pursue his dream.

As I look down the mountain, my palms grew sweaty as I clinch the reins. The trail is very high and dusty so it is very hard to see anything. Even though it was dusty, the horses fortunately still knew where they were going. Some people are a little scared because they are so high up, but not for me because I like living on the edge like this, literally.

“I told you something was different Jamie. Look, nobody is here. There are no cars parked in any driveways. Do you see anyone walking around outside? We are standing in complete silence. What the hell is wrong with our neighborhood? What the hell is going on? We have checked my house, your house, your mom’s friend house, and Christina’s house. This is really fucking weird.”

My friends room mate discovered tabit today. He is the worst candidate for the job and he cant stop using it. I wish he would stop because he has no talent. Maybe in a few years but not now, not under these circumstances.